CRAZY
I remember when,
I remember, I remember when I LOST my mind
There was something so special about that place
Even your emotions have an echo
In so much space
And when you’re out there,
Out there yeah I was out of touch
But it wasn’t because I didn’t know enough
I just knew too much
Well maybe I’m crazy
Maybe I’m crazy
Maybe I’m crazy
Probably…….

I’ve become comfortable with my crazy
Manic for my man’s voice calling me baby
Baby say you hear the angels singing too
Got me beaming for you
Screaming you name
Pounding my walls
All that’s missing is the late night emergency calls
For missed meds
Women we are misled in our own misleading
Easy believing the easy bake loving
Burning under the incandescence
He don’t cake up like a real oven
But you rise up under his fluorescence
He ain’t husband, close to type or material
But you paint him with that presence
Why?
Cause it’s better than being single
Better than being the lonely bitch at Mingles
Holding all the drinks and purses
Looking thirsty and deserted
Dragging coolers when its open bar at the beach
You to busy building destination weddings with Wintson
Distant daydreaming of cracking coconuts with Kingston
When in reality you dippin’ off the dollar menu with them d-boys in the street
But hey to each her own choice of poison
You pick which dose of delusion you prefer
You aint his first and he aint the worst you could do
Convince yourself you can introduce him
To your parents at the family reunion
Bitch yall was just screwing but you
Are FUCKING crazy
Sometimes misused
With a fair share of daddy issues
And a boatload of bogus preconceived notions
About the psychology of men
Diving into relationships like you in summer Olympic training
Straining for the stroke
Keeping hope afloat
So you don’t drown in the disappointment
So you always at him, annoying, adamant, nagging him about having it your way
Making mountains out of molehills
Marriages out of one night stands
At first glance he was a gentleman
Now he can stand your muthafuckin mama
You can stand his 4 baby mamas
You gaining relationship weight over the summer
Stressing out from the self inflicted drama
Now you in line to be baby mama # 5
Baby ‘m gonna have to find a method to the madness
Got me feeling schizophrenic
I haven’t even managed to finish putting on my pants
In preparations for our first date
So yeah I am doing way too much way to early
But you don’t call and then you show up 45 minutes late
With a slew of excuses that remind me of old dude
That I just got through screwing with
And I know you not him
So I should give you the benefit of the doubt
But after the jaded escapades
Crusades through my heartaches
I aint up for to many more hard or easy let downs
To let down my guard
Yeah the outside is hard
Cause the meat is to sweat to be indulged in my the weak and unworthy
Already been swindled out of swigs swallows and sips
To thirsty throat sips I knew were underserving
On the back of turning my back to my own intuition
Second guessing circumventing all the good sense I’ve been given
So yes it’s a mission almost impossible to keep me from stopping you
From doing anything
Be it love me or leave
It can all just be peace
It will be my two cats and me
I’ll let their little asses breed and make their kittens my family
My god I’ve lost it
Another chance at romance
So secure in my preserved self defense
But closed fists don’t catch no blessings
Only knock them out the way
So I try to pay attention
Pose myself in proper posture as I pray
Lord
Send me a man
One I can actually stand
Hell, one who can actually stand me
Cause my ass is crazy ,
Looney Tunes
Cheese done slid off my cracker
One taco short of a fiesta platter
So brother man is gonna have to have traveled some dangerous terrain
Experienced some unexplainable pain
Given each marred memory a name
And listened to them when they whispered to him
That I would understand all of where he had been
Crazy as it may sound
I am good to stick around
Fuse to you like Crazy glue
Baby crazy is as crazy does
Forrest Gump found him someone to love
And that man was crazy as a coda bug
Now I don’t know very much
But I do know what love is
And I do know it’s substance
And I know there is a husband waiting for every lady
That’s designed to be a wife
It just seems like in the meantime
Well maybe I’m crazy
Maybe I’m crazy
Maybe I’m crazy
Probably…….